Motherhood Matters!

It's days like today when everything runs so smoothly, the babies behave so well, the house remains so clean, everything is in order and my arms seem to be SO empty that i think...It is time for another baby! i don't think I ever want to be without a baby on my lap. It's in days like these that I realise I am living out my calling. I would love to go back to high school so that when asked what I want to be I could say with my head held high... I want to be a wife and a mother to as many babies as I can get my hands on. It seems the more I serve my family...the less I feel guilty for not, " being all that I can be" or " meeting my potential". I am a mother. And while that doesn't come with high praise from others or a nice paycheck.... It is all that I aspire to be and everything I want out of life. Is it simple?? Yes. Fulfilling? More than anything I have ever known.  Mothering comes with blowout diaper(ha ha), midnight feedings, books read over and over hundreds of times, baths to be had, dishes to be done, floors to be scrubbed, babies to be rocked, diapers to be washed, clothes to be folded, appointments to be made and taken to, kisses and hugs to be given and received every minute of everyday and joy. Joy so great it is unexplainable. I do not aspire to feel empowered because I have no need to feel anything other than what I already feel. I feel loved and cherished. My time is spent pouring into my sweet babies. What could be more important or more fulfilling?? My hands wipe boogers, rub lotion,change diapers, caress cheeks, brush hair, read books and bible stories, hold fingers, tickle bellies and prepare meals. My heart holds onto every smile, laugh, story and song my children make up each day. My mind races over everything we have to accomplish today and the days to come....I am a mother and that is enough. I wish I had known that it was a fine thing to aspire to be when I was young because I know that it is all that I was ever designed to be. I nurture souls...and i'd say that is a pretty cool job. I do not have a degree or career...but i have a functioning uterus, loving arms and a healthy marriage. A home that is filled with love and joy and babies! I do not have plans to be anything other than what i am in the near future, the far off future, or anytime in this lifetime....But that does not mean I don't have goals.... if you sit with me I will most certainly tell you of my desire to adopt as many children as my sweet husband and the state will allow, to have as many babies as the Lord and my uterus will provide, to grow everything we eat,,( from the meat to the dairy), to find ways to be missionaries where we are, to learn greek.....I have goals. I aspire to be things... But all within my calling as a wife and mother. i know my hair is always a mess and my legs are not shaved...but please don't judge me and think i have no drive or ambition...i have drive. I have woke up mutiple times a night for the last 4 years with babies who were sick or nursing, changed more diapers than I care to remember, and been pregnant a total of 131 weeks in the last 4 years. I have puked in more toilets, spit in more cups(excessive saliva...side effect of pregnancy), and lugged around a heavy carseat to more places than you could imagine...all this to say that sometimes when a woman has 3 children three and under...her drive and ambition is being poured into surviving rather than her appearance. Believe me when I say nobody is more aware of this than the woman herself...well perhaps her husband. haha.  Motherhood has a way of creeping into every nook and crevice and I for one am so grateful it has...because motherhood matters. It is allconsuming but it is beautiful. It's sad that we live in a day in age where it is not valued as it should be. For all the moms out there who feel like they have to aspire to be more because the feminist movement is all about having it all....know there is atleast one other lady who thinks having it all is having babies, keeping house, and caring for a husband.

Daughter are a moms best friend!

At a young age I had decided, i would have 6 kids. 5 boys and 1 girl. I would have my five boys back to back and then years i would have my little girl. Yes, technically I was 14 and I did realise you don't just get to pick the sex of your child but this was my ideal. The family I thought about in my head. The five boys would grow up getting into all sorts of fun trouble together and then would come my sweet girl. She ofcourse would be the epitamy of a perfect woman. And her brothers would dote upon her and spoil. And when she got walked down the isle by her daddy, there would be no denying that she was his whole world.....
                                 
                                                         * flash forward 6 years*

My husband Joey and I were expecting our first wonderful blessing from the Lord, and tho I had prayed everyday for years for my boys....the day of the ultrasound I had this overwhelming desire for it to be a girl...and was soo happy when it was in fact a girl...well until the hormones caught up with me later that night and i cried and told joey but i wanted it to be a boy too!!! i had already began to sense what i now know so well about little girls...but it was a journey. While other women dream of dressing girls in big pink dresses and bows galore, i dreamed of teaching her how to grow her own food, manage her home, cook, clean, raise babies..do all these things that i still have not perfected but I hope to one day. Just knowing I had a girl within my womb made me want to be that mom. The mom that was my daughter best friend.

I have two girls and a boy. And as much much as i love my sweet mo, ( if you knew  him you'd know how impossible it would be not to) there is just something about pouring womanhood into a little woman. i take care of all her needs. I'll teach her to take care of her room. To write. To read. i'll teach her everything she knows about the Lord. i'll teach her to cook. To clean. To sew. To quilt. To knit.To play the piano. i'll be the one that helps her get dressed for her first date. I'll get to hear about her first date. I'll get to help her get ready for first date first.The prom. Hear about her first crush.Her first kiss first!I'll meet all her friends and make them cookies and tea. She'll share with me things her daddy really doesnt need to know about, Little secrets I'll store away in my heart. I'll be the one that teaches her about her time of the month. I'll help her make her house a home. give her the pearls my mother gave me. have thousands of conversations about the ins and outs of her days. I'll help her plan her wedding, and help her pick her dress. I'll teach her to wear makeup and fix her hair. I'll be the one that gets to help her with childbirth and breastfeeding. And I'll get to rock her beautiful babies. I will support every dream she ever has...And do my best to wipe every tear along the way. You ask me why I like having daughter....It's because I like passing womanhood on. And i love that daughters are their mothers best friends later in life. I hope and pray I can live up to all that Rebekah and Rahab need of me. But I know, that even if I fall short. my girls will know that they are my whole world. As is my little Mo.