At a young age I had decided, i would have 6 kids. 5 boys and 1 girl. I would have my five boys back to back and then years i would have my little girl. Yes, technically I was 14 and I did realise you don't just get to pick the sex of your child but this was my ideal. The family I thought about in my head. The five boys would grow up getting into all sorts of fun trouble together and then would come my sweet girl. She ofcourse would be the epitamy of a perfect woman. And her brothers would dote upon her and spoil. And when she got walked down the isle by her daddy, there would be no denying that she was his whole world.....
* flash forward 6 years*
My husband Joey and I were expecting our first wonderful blessing from the Lord, and tho I had prayed everyday for years for my boys....the day of the ultrasound I had this overwhelming desire for it to be a girl...and was soo happy when it was in fact a girl...well until the hormones caught up with me later that night and i cried and told joey but i wanted it to be a boy too!!! i had already began to sense what i now know so well about little girls...but it was a journey. While other women dream of dressing girls in big pink dresses and bows galore, i dreamed of teaching her how to grow her own food, manage her home, cook, clean, raise babies..do all these things that i still have not perfected but I hope to one day. Just knowing I had a girl within my womb made me want to be that mom. The mom that was my daughter best friend.
I have two girls and a boy. And as much much as i love my sweet mo, ( if you knew him you'd know how impossible it would be not to) there is just something about pouring womanhood into a little woman. i take care of all her needs. I'll teach her to take care of her room. To write. To read. i'll teach her everything she knows about the Lord. i'll teach her to cook. To clean. To sew. To quilt. To knit.To play the piano. i'll be the one that helps her get dressed for her first date. I'll get to hear about her first date. I'll get to help her get ready for first date first.The prom. Hear about her first crush.Her first kiss first!I'll meet all her friends and make them cookies and tea. She'll share with me things her daddy really doesnt need to know about, Little secrets I'll store away in my heart. I'll be the one that teaches her about her time of the month. I'll help her make her house a home. give her the pearls my mother gave me. have thousands of conversations about the ins and outs of her days. I'll help her plan her wedding, and help her pick her dress. I'll teach her to wear makeup and fix her hair. I'll be the one that gets to help her with childbirth and breastfeeding. And I'll get to rock her beautiful babies. I will support every dream she ever has...And do my best to wipe every tear along the way. You ask me why I like having daughter....It's because I like passing womanhood on. And i love that daughters are their mothers best friends later in life. I hope and pray I can live up to all that Rebekah and Rahab need of me. But I know, that even if I fall short. my girls will know that they are my whole world. As is my little Mo.
