Motherhood Matters!

It's days like today when everything runs so smoothly, the babies behave so well, the house remains so clean, everything is in order and my arms seem to be SO empty that i think...It is time for another baby! i don't think I ever want to be without a baby on my lap. It's in days like these that I realise I am living out my calling. I would love to go back to high school so that when asked what I want to be I could say with my head held high... I want to be a wife and a mother to as many babies as I can get my hands on. It seems the more I serve my family...the less I feel guilty for not, " being all that I can be" or " meeting my potential". I am a mother. And while that doesn't come with high praise from others or a nice paycheck.... It is all that I aspire to be and everything I want out of life. Is it simple?? Yes. Fulfilling? More than anything I have ever known.  Mothering comes with blowout diaper(ha ha), midnight feedings, books read over and over hundreds of times, baths to be had, dishes to be done, floors to be scrubbed, babies to be rocked, diapers to be washed, clothes to be folded, appointments to be made and taken to, kisses and hugs to be given and received every minute of everyday and joy. Joy so great it is unexplainable. I do not aspire to feel empowered because I have no need to feel anything other than what I already feel. I feel loved and cherished. My time is spent pouring into my sweet babies. What could be more important or more fulfilling?? My hands wipe boogers, rub lotion,change diapers, caress cheeks, brush hair, read books and bible stories, hold fingers, tickle bellies and prepare meals. My heart holds onto every smile, laugh, story and song my children make up each day. My mind races over everything we have to accomplish today and the days to come....I am a mother and that is enough. I wish I had known that it was a fine thing to aspire to be when I was young because I know that it is all that I was ever designed to be. I nurture souls...and i'd say that is a pretty cool job. I do not have a degree or career...but i have a functioning uterus, loving arms and a healthy marriage. A home that is filled with love and joy and babies! I do not have plans to be anything other than what i am in the near future, the far off future, or anytime in this lifetime....But that does not mean I don't have goals.... if you sit with me I will most certainly tell you of my desire to adopt as many children as my sweet husband and the state will allow, to have as many babies as the Lord and my uterus will provide, to grow everything we eat,,( from the meat to the dairy), to find ways to be missionaries where we are, to learn greek.....I have goals. I aspire to be things... But all within my calling as a wife and mother. i know my hair is always a mess and my legs are not shaved...but please don't judge me and think i have no drive or ambition...i have drive. I have woke up mutiple times a night for the last 4 years with babies who were sick or nursing, changed more diapers than I care to remember, and been pregnant a total of 131 weeks in the last 4 years. I have puked in more toilets, spit in more cups(excessive saliva...side effect of pregnancy), and lugged around a heavy carseat to more places than you could imagine...all this to say that sometimes when a woman has 3 children three and under...her drive and ambition is being poured into surviving rather than her appearance. Believe me when I say nobody is more aware of this than the woman herself...well perhaps her husband. haha.  Motherhood has a way of creeping into every nook and crevice and I for one am so grateful it has...because motherhood matters. It is allconsuming but it is beautiful. It's sad that we live in a day in age where it is not valued as it should be. For all the moms out there who feel like they have to aspire to be more because the feminist movement is all about having it all....know there is atleast one other lady who thinks having it all is having babies, keeping house, and caring for a husband.