*The little things*

Today I'm sitting in bed feeling my Rachel do her gymnastics in my tummy and thinking how blessed I am to have made it to 25 weeks tomorrow. How cool is that. 25 weeks! I am excited. I have the urg to start buying all that we need.. The newborn and 0-3 months long sleeve onesies are calling my names with the little matching pants. The maryjane socks for her tiny little feet. I have finally given up on owning lots of those little smocked dresses. And ofcourse I am still dreaming of the amazing diapers I want for my girl. Trying to convince a man who HATES cloth diapers that I need/want a few $20-25 diapers is not happening. Last night I showed them to him and his words were.. "we'renot rich. We can't afford $25 diapers. That's ridiculous. You have to have limits." I cried. Not because I wanted the diapers so much...tho I do. But because I made him feel like he couldn't give me something I wanted. I'm not a jewelry girl. Or a vacation lover. I don't like to spend money on many things. But diapers...are my hobby. I LOVEcloth diapering my babies. In particular I love pinning prefolds on my babies. No cover...just change them as soon as they pee alittle. It's fun to me. I feel like a good mama and I enjoy it. However...having 3 very mobile kids is going to make my pinning obsession alittle less doable.. so I want some fitteds. I know they are obscenely expensive.. but I think why can't we buy one a month and by the time she's here i'll have 4. He says think of all the disposables that we can buy with $25. I even tried to get them as my birthday and Christmas present. It isn't happening. WHile I knew my original goal of getting 8-12 would NEVER happen... I was hoping he'd let me get a few. I could settle forprefoldfitteds....I joke about wanting to have a diaper partybut everything I want is so particular that it isn't even an option anymore and Joey told me yet again he doesn't want me to have a baby shower. Which is fine... but we have no clothes for the girl. SO we have to start gathering them up when I hit 36 weeks or so. I really want to get atleast some newborn covers. And I'm sure I will continue to lust after the sustainablebabyish multi fitteds , and sustainablebabyish organic cotton/bamboo flannel and overnight diapers with snaps. I wish he loved cloth diapering as much as I do. The only character in another man that isn't my husband that I ever desire even the slightest is when I watch my cloth diapering mama friends. ALL of their husbands enjoy that they cloth diaper and it seems they are all loud to diaper them anyway they want. I wish Joey were that way sometimes. Then I think about the things my joey is that those men aren't and I think... I'll stick with my joey. Love that man. Still not talking on the phone much...so I have been dying to write again. To bad I have nothing worth while to say. Going to library time in a bit for some fun! The babies love library time. I have been sooo busy around here. Cooking and cleaning AND schooling and potty training. We might hit up a park afterwards if the kids are good and it isn't to hot. I love spending the days with my bABies! So grateful my husband lets me stay home... even if it does mean I have to sacrifice my super soft fitted diapers! : ) What a blessing it is to never miss a smile or laugh. To get to teach them everything they know. To get to read the bible together everyday. Oh yeah one thing I'm sucking at these daays....doing my birth verses. SUper sad about that. I guess it probably wont happen again. : ( I so wanted a birth where joey and I were reflecting upon the same passages.But as he always says...we have our whole lives! : )